There are times in your life where you really wonder where you're heading in your life. After that session and maybe a few before that, I realised I may not be that suitable for what I'm doing.
I'm not thinking enough, I'm not fast enough, I'm too clueless, I don't know what to do, I don't see the correct things and I'm obviously not smart enough. I've never been so stressed up before, not even when I was in school. I wake up in the middle of the nights so many times, I can't sleep (so much so that I have to resort to going for long long jogs so that I'll be tired enough to sleep), I break down even when I'm on my way to and after work.(imagine some nutcase crying in the train) This is crazy. I'm sick of myself for being like that, but hopefully it's a phase and I'll get over it. I'm so sick of myself.
